Cancer

‘My Journey with my Father ………….Cancer, just the word alone is scary .Cancer….. my heart feels so heavy just by the sound of it  ……..Your Father……I felt like I had been punched in the stomach and I  couldn’t breathe. So many things run through your mind but you can’t ask a thing because your head can’t quite grasp what was said. I still feel that way, if I stop to think about it .  I do think about my Dad ,My Hero ,the man that has been there for me my whole life .The Man I respect more than anyone in the world. My entire life I never heard my Dad say a bad word about anyone ….no matter what he must have thought sometimes. He worked so, so hard 12-14 hrs a day 365 days a year. He went through a lot as a single father of 3 children .I know he did he very best he could have .Funny I understand about that so much more now that I am older. Interesting how that works, things somewhat reversed. We become the “keepers” of our Parents more times than not and depending on birth order of siblings, one will have more responsibility concerning either Parent. One of whom may need help at some point.

               Which brings my Father and I on this journey together .He has stage 4 small cell lung cancer, which is not good .Period. Yes you can do radiation and or chemotherapy, but the success of “remission” is very slim. Without treatment not long at all.21 Days ago my Father started radiation, which had its own special issues( as I smile) .It has helped shrink one of the tumors, which was extremely important as it was growing towards Dads spinal cord ..Paralyzed from the neck down with lung cancer is no way to go …For anyone, I still think I hope this is a nightmare that I wake up from. I know I won’t though .So now we wait until 3 days after Christmas the 28^th to meet with the wonderful Dr.(everyone, Nurses, Drs. and ,techs  have been amazing .)And then we will know if it has spread to any other organs. There was a PET scan last week and 2 Biopsy’s (first one didn’t work) so until then we wait and we pray........